Hujan (Dosa)

Langit-langit menghitam

Terpejal cahaya samar

Mencederai setiap umat

Mengkukuhi setiap kepala

Teresap dan tercumbu

Ketika

Langit-langit menghitam

Gemuruh perih yang terdalam

Menjatuhkan air-air kesedihan

Menghujani setiap tubuh sang pendosa

Ketika

Nikmat menjadi tak terbendung

Meredakan setiap butir-butir

Kesenyapan

Kepenatan

Dengan gelora yang menggelegar

Ketika

Kita semua terbangun

Akan rintik-rintik dosa

Percikan air mata

Akan terhenti ketika,

Kita semua

Mati

Lima Belas Jari, wahai sang pencuri

Tertumpuk maksiat, percikan darah

Gelap dan dingin

Menggerogoti sukma sang pemilik

Lima belas jari

Citra debu matahari yang fana

Terlihat menyinari, dalam perjalanan kematian

Bintang-bintang bersaksi dan kemudian mati

Lima belas jari

Semesta mengingkari

Relung sukma menghakimi

Api terpecik dan menyulut

Para-para jiwa sakit oleh kebekuan

Lima belas jari

Jantung tertembus oleh kehadiranmu

Insan hanya menghirup dan menghembuskan

Hingga mati dalam noda

Yang jadi terbersih olehmu

Lima belas jari

Cukup sudah

Aku olehmu

Ku bukan boneka

Ku muncul saat purnama

Untuk memanggilmu kembali, ke pelukan

Ajal

HINA

Pasir-pasir putih berbuih

Disusupi oleh air-air keringat

Merindu, dan tersedu

Teringat oleh kaum-kaum yang terhina

Terlelap akan gelapnya dunia

Pasir-pasir putih berbuih

Disisipi air laut

Tanpa akhir dan terus berputar

Menerima tanpa menghakimi

Terlena akan ironi para surgawi

Pasir-pasir putih berbuih

Seperti menghakimi

Namun tak kunjung jua bersinar

Perlahan menggerogoti tulang

Para insan dunia

Tanpa batas dan cinta

Pasir-pasir putih berbuih

Hinakah aku?

Hinakah mereka?

Rapuhkah kami para manusia

Yang terseret ombak tanpa henti

Dan menghilang tak berbekas

Mendamba kehinaan

Unholy Confession

Lorong waktu ini, akan segera berakhir, ketika mataku tertutup dan cahaya itu melesat jauh pergi meninggalkan segala kenangan indah dan pahit. Seperti labirin.

Ketika hari ini berakhir, dan nafas ini usai aku akan tertunduk lesu dengan hati membiru, teringat akan dosa-dosaku. Yang tak pernah kusesali. Hanya karena prinsip.

Dalam hitungan tahun, semua akan terjawab, ketika Ia memanggilku, dengan kasar, lugas dan tanpa pamrih. Terbayang perkataanya akan sedemikian keras, namun aku terima. Itulah namanya pil pahit.

Jujur kuakui, terkadang aku seperti melihat dimensi lain, dimensi yang tak bisa orang lain rasa. Dimensi keegoisan diri. Egosentrisme merasuk ke hatiku.

Ayah ku sedemikian keras, namun dalam hatinya, yang masih mampu kubaca, sangat menyayangiku. Cahaya matanya membuatku gelisah hingga detik ini, ketika aku membentak balik kepadanya. Aku akan menyesal nantinya, itu pasti.

Ibuku, selalu diam. Tak pernah marah tak pernah mengeluarkan rasa emosinya setitikpun terhadapku. Hanya ia, hatinya yang tak bisa kubaca. Aku kalah Ibu.

Adikkku yang begitu lucu, terkadang aku sedih kenapa dia ada ketika aku hancur lebur. Terkadang ia manusia yang paling mengerti akan diriku. Sesuatu terjadi padanya. Maka aku akan hilang, tersedot deras ke lubang hitam.

Leluhurku, siapa dia aku tidak tahu, tak ada seorang pun yang memberitahu. Aku penasaran, aku bimbang dan tanpa arah. Hingga aku mencoba sesuatu yang mungkin mereka tidak suka. Dan mulai mengutukiku. Maafkan aku.

Sahabat-sahabatku, namamu terhias di kulitku, kukenang dirimu dan kuberkati kalian agar kalian bahagia sampai akhir hayat, walau aku tak mampu membendung siksaan hidup yang mulai menjerat hati. Nafasku mulai pendek, kuakui hidup ini tak lama lagi.

Wanita yang pernah kusayangi dalam hidupku, im sorry.

invective freedom

god says live just a while

so i go live waiting death with breathe

no one care and no one dare 

so i stand up and do what i care

You smile like a king 

but no ever king lives like lion king

he fears of death and still getting beaten

with me and sorrow

you know what is life means

making coffee and lit some joints

feel peace and hatred at a times

but you still dont know my suffering

god says live just a while 

so i go live waiting death with breathe

no one care and no one dare

so i stand up and do what i care

if you die today

i wont smile i wont cry

i just promise you to take the rest

vanished the pain and get all the freedom

mama told i have something 

a bit different but would not getting big

because i choose a different way

like frank sinatra sing about his way

hey you there grow up man

dont underestimate people like me

you know i can kill you whenever i want

i'll be your nightmare if you dare to beg

Info & Understanding Javanist Original Java (Syncretism Religion & Spirituality Combination)

Javanist is native Javanese culture is the syncretism of ancient beliefs with religious teachings that came later, such as Hinduism, Buddhism, Islam, and Christianity.Among the mixture of the most dominant is the teachings of Islam.

Discussing the problem is indeed the result Javanist terms Manunggaling Kawulo Gusti, Sedulur to four Five pancer Sangkan Paraning Dumadi, ngeruwat, initiation, and others.

Drs Susilo conclude about Javanist are as follows:

* Javanist is the mixing of religious syncretism of Hindu-Buddhist-Islamic. Nevertheless Javanist teachings still relate and sticking to the original teachings of Javanese tradition that still seems peculiar characteristics and autonomy.

* Religion according to ideology is Manunggaling subjects Javanist Gusti is united with God's servant. By some Islamic circles of white students, the concept of union of man with God is to lead to God or behavioral dissatisfaction of god called Shirk.

* Perspective teachings tasauf Javanist dimensionless mixing between the Javanese culture, Hinduism, and Buddhism is less appreciated aspects of Shari'a in the sense that relates to essential laws of Islam.

* King is a religious leader. This is apparent from the use or the use of title "Hadrat Panatagama", "Khalifatullah", "religious teachings ageming aji" (jewelry), the king, because it must be adjusted with origin of tradition of Java.

* Book of the Mahabharata and Ramayana is a source of inspiration Javanist courses that contain moral teachings and character behavior, life guidance.

* Review Java review mind more focused on mental and behavioral aspects of the inner senses. Strategy Javanist approach is to find approaches to God even always wanted to merge with God (Manunggaling Gusti subjects) and inner character of his analysis.

Yours respectfully
Slamet Priyadi / Source: Siti Jenar, YB. Prabaswara

Voices....

I heard it since beginning....

The promptings of the inner eye...

It sounds like my chest showered with tears....

If only I could turn time to eliminate that voice....

The voice said it was too late...

He has come and will follow wherever I go....

Until my death out later, this lament would never go...

The voices.....

From the beginning I knew that this road is not enough for scum....

10 Commandments from Men mandated are wasted.....

Mesmerized by the bright glare of sunlight....

And fell in the arms of regret...

It made me understand of the way mankind went blind...

The voices....

I am not trying to destroy you....

You are not limited and has suffered tremendous strength....

Oo let the real truth to guide me forever....

Because the truth is always a blessing....

And the voices imprisons any evil intentions....

They are partly me....

For something that so regrettable, i am sorry.....

I say future is absurd

You say your future is bright

You say your future comes with money

You say your future is full of blitz

You say your future is all about happy family

I say future is absurd                                

If you ask why ?

I say your future is absurd

The future that you think will be better

I say you are subjective

You may happy when others remain sad

You may forget

There is a time that snug what will happen and....

There are Men that will decide what you will be....

Yes, I say future things is absurd

I say future is absurd

At end even I say it is absurd.

For those people who eat shit everyday

Philosophy Concept by Socrates

The Doctrine of Socrates: Concepts
The doctrine of Socrates can be summed up in two words: concepts, morality -- or better, moral concepts.
For Socrates, the concept is that of which all think when they speak of a thing. In the rational part of every man there exist some notions which are common to all and hence enjoy universality and necessity, and which form the substratum of true understanding or knowledge. The concept of which the Sophists speak is merely an opinion, a fleeting instant of knowledge. Socrates does not undervalue such knowledge, but neither does he consider it to be full; for knowledge should be well enough established to serve as the foundation of science. True science is universal; that is, it is common to all men and to all times; it is objective, and is not subject to the changes of fortune. True science consists in understanding through concepts, which have the same universal characteristics as science itself.
To arrive at an understanding of such concepts, Socrates used the inductive method of dialogue (Socratic method), the principal parts of which were two: irony and maieutics. In general the process was as follows:

• Socrates first posed a question -- for example, "What is justice?" Since he had said that he did not himself know what it could be (Socratic ignorance), he asked his pupils what they thought was justice.
• The pupils, for the greater part Sophists, answered according to the Sophistic method, adducing many examples; e.g., "Zeus is just"; "the gods are just," etc. (Exemplification.) "Oh, how many justices!" answered Socrates. "I asked what is justice, and you answer by bringing me a great number of justices."
• Thus he passed over to a criticism (irony) of the examples adduced, through which he cleared the disciples' minds of prejudices and false notions about the question proposed.
• From irony he passed to maieutics -- the art which Socrates said he had learned from his mother; she helped the parts of the body, he aided those of the spirit. (The word is derived from the Greek "maieutikos," pertaining to midwifery. The maieutic method was Socrates' way of bringing out ideas latent in the mind.) Maieutics was the conclusive part of the dialogue, in which Socrates tried to make his disciples see how, by reflecting upon themselves, they could observe the presence of certain elements common and necessary to all justices (the concept of justice).
• Such elements took concrete form in the definition, which summed up in a few words the characteristics that were judged necessary to the concept of the question proposed.

It is needless to say that the Socratic dialogues did not always succeed in stabilizing the definition. In such cases, the so-called Socratic ignorance which Socrates professed at the beginning of the question was not fictitious. Thus the dialogue was a work of self-criticism, done with the help of the students for the purpose, if possible, of arriving at a concept -- a true understanding of the question proposed.
The Doctrine of Socrates: Ethics
In ethics, Socrates did not surpass the prejudice of Greek intellectualism, which made the practice completely dependent upon theory. It is enough to know virtue in order to be virtuous. Everyone wishes to be happy. If he does not attain happiness, it is because he does not know the way that leads to happiness. Consequently, so-called evil men are in reality only ignorant; the evil is reduced to error. As vice is synonymous with ignorance, so knowledge of the good is synonymous with virtue. Thus it is easy to see why Socrates, who intended to form a virtuous youth, restricted his teaching to the search for moral concepts. It is to be noted that moral intellectualism is present in all Greek thought, not excepting the great ethical systems of Plato and Aristotle.




http://www.radicalacademy.com/philsocrates.htm#concepts

I need what people call it is inspiration, shit.

An conversation with an Old Friend

He was from Guinea, the african guy. I have been knowing him almost nearly a year. He is one of my best friend. The most i like from him that he is and innocent and very honest guy. We likes discuss about politics, history of nations and the other things. He came from the father proud of family. He studied here by scholarship from his governmnet. Once i asked, "what is your favourite food", he answered, " All the food here is spicy, but the people from us always eat potatoes. So i like potatoes....plain".
Last Friday, i met him and we greet each other as usual. In this month he is fasting as like the others moslems in the world. In that time i was alone so i force him to chat(sorry), it was very long time since we haven't meet. So i opened conversation with the interesting topic for him. Again i forced him to open his mouth with anger(or proud) and passion to fight. I was threw him with:
(Situation: two of us in the same table, i have a can of coffee and lit a ciggaretes, he was uniformed with "guinea moslem traditional suite", and he wass fasting)
Me: What is the point for fasting?
Oumar: Hey i am moslem, and in this month i always do that. I had done my pray this afternoon and came back here with my countreymen....
Me: I am moslem, but myself dont fasting as you people do...
Oumar: Its up to you, Our religon never pushes a moslem to fasting. Its up to his own right...
Me: In koran have verse that if a moslem do not pray for afternoon's Friday three times therefore he must be kafir. I admit that i didnt do that had been a year. I must be Kafir. What do you think?.
Oumar:(smiling). I have no right to judge you Kafir or whatever. I am strict and you have your own liberty. Its up to you(again).
Me: Hmm, ok. But do you believe to God?, Are you believe there is a god?
Oumar: Im confusing why you asking me that question, You are moslem but It is again up to you. But you know about a judgement when it comes, dont you?, in the Koran you could see that. dont you scared about that?
Me:I take the risk, I am moslem, i have point of it. But for me it makes no sense at all. Have you touched the God?.
Oumar:......

The conversation took like 40 minutes and after that he permitted to leave.....
( I may to continue that answer, but for me it wont accepted. Cause i have my perception and would keep stick on it in my life.....Then in this blog step by step i would expose what is God in my point of view..step by step....)

Daily Tarot Card(Friday, Sept 11)

Two of Wands

A choice between two things in business. Balance needs to be found before you get too long into a project. Have you weighed all the options in front of you? The need for quick decision. Good advice is surrounding you, but you must decide which direction to take. Make certain you are being fair in your business dealings. Perhaps you have overlooked something obvious to everyone but you.

HARAPAN.

"Berharap dunia hanya hitam dan putih,

yang benar dan yang salah,

yang rendah dan yang tinggi,

sang iblis dan si malaikat,

agama yang benar dan agama yang salah,

ras yang terunggul dan ras budak,

Bangsa terkuat dan bangsa terlemah,

Berharap dunia penuh dengan warna warni,

lebih indah dari pelangi,

dipenuhi intrik dan nafsu duniawi,

orang lemah mengaku kuat begitu juga sebaliknya,

orang pintar mengaku bodoh begitu juga sebaliknya,

si iblis mengaku malaikat begitu juga sebaliknya,

yang menyedihkan jadi menyenangkan begitu juga sebaliknya.

Apa yang terbaik?"

Essences of Random

"Esensi dari apa yang kita hadapi adalah, sesuatu yang pasti menjadi tidak pasti, begitu sebaliknya, dan begitu rupa adanya."

SANG PEMUDA

"Pemuda yang satu itu tidak baik,

ia tidak sopan,

ia amoral,

ia pemarah,

ia penuh dendam dan dihantui iblis-iblis terkutuk mengendap segala-galanya dalam kebisuan abadi, itu adalah aku.

Yang sebenar-benarnya

Pemuda yang itu bernama aku,

aku suka memberi dan tak berharap imbalan,

bersikap sopan dan segan terhadap siapapun, itu aku.

Yang sebenar-benarnya

Yang mengalami krisis kepercayaan diri,

terlalu banyak masalah dan mudah depresi,

punya beberapa teman yang bisa dipercaya dan tidak,

tak suka berhutang dan selalu berbuat tidak baik dan tidak benar. Aku adalah ambigu"

When it stop?

"Perang berkecamuk bagai malam dengan bulan yang terus menerus menyinari bumi, tiada akhir dan selalu ada awal".

Swear I felt this Once in my life. Sign.

"Memandang langit berbicara padaku,

terpampang jelas imaji-imaji dinamis yang mengaggumkan,

menggambarkan berbagai sosok dewa dan iblis,

Aku terheran dan termenung yang terasupi halusinasi namun itu nyata."

Tips to do this:

(smoke ya-ba and felt till drop.)

S.E.P.I

"Di malam hari aku dihanyuti perasaan sepi,

layaknya kekaisaran roman datang padaku,

dengan ribuan pasukan terhampar bersenjata lengkap,

dihunuskannya pedang mereka kepadaku, satu persatu,

terbunuhlah aku berkali-kali,

timbullah perasaan sepi"

The saddest part of being a human creature.

"Harafiah dalam tujuan hidup manusia adalah, mencari kebohongan jati diri dan berpura-pura di situasi yang menyedihkan"